Faith: What Life Might Look Like

God has given me this abundant life.  A family I love.  Work that invigorates.

And yet I want. I want some parts of my life to be different. I think “what if. . .” and “If only. . .” My mind wanders and I think about my life and what it might look like “if only. . .”

And then I come back to the present.  But I find I’m only partially here.  I leave a small piece of me–part of my attention–in that place.  In the “If only” place.

I’m like a puzzle with one missing piece.  Set out on the table, put together, yet not complete.  The puzzle makers search for the missing piece and come up short.  Disappointment after all that work.  And then the sigh, oh well. 

When I live in the “If onlys” and “what ifs”  I imagine God’s disappointment.  After all, He has orchestrated this life.  He knows my disappointment.  My frustration.  My expectations.  My hopes.

He also knows how it impacts those around me.  Those He gave me to love completely.  Those who aren’t getting my full attention.

What would my life look like if I fully lived the life set before me?  No “if onlys.”  No “what ifs.”  What if I just lived in the present moment and focused my full attention?  What if I celebrated this life fully with thanksgiving? What if I just trusted God fully? Had faith?

Would this life begin to look like the life I dream about? Or perhaps, become more abundant than I could ever imagine. . .

I think of Christ and wonder whether he ever felt as I do.  As He carried the cross, I wonder if He ever thought “if only. . .”

“let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising shame, and hath sat down at the right hand of the throne of God”  – Hebrews 12:1 ASV


Posted on May 5, 2011, in Faith, God, Hope, Joy and tagged , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 7 Comments.

  1. Elizabeth, I can relate to that “if only” place. I also spend time there. But I think you are correct that if we trusted fully in God, live fully the life set before us in faith, that life would be a truly abundant life beyond our wildest dreams. Maybe the only real “if only” that matters is something we can do something about by embracing the life and love that He has shown us. Peace, Linda

  2. What a perfect verse from Hebrews. It reminded me of my favorite line in the movie Secretariat, when the owner goes out to the barn the night before the third race in the Triple Crown. She strokes Secretariat’s soft muzzle and says gently, “I’ve run my race. Now you run yours.” Maybe that’s what Jesus is thinking now. We get to run our race because he ran his. Lovely post. Thank you.

  3. Great post! 🙂 I really think God must be sad when we live in the regrets instead of possibilities–when we focus on what-if’s instead of what-ifs. Thanks for the reminder! And welcome to The High Calling. I’m glad to find you there.

  4. That Hebrews verse gets me every time. For the JOY set before Him… The JOY! What an incredible Savior.

    Welcome to It’s a delight to meet you.

  5. my mom used to say “shoulda coulda woulda”. At the same time I know, and understand, the “only if” life – I know how destructive it is. Knowing is simply not the same as acting upon the knowledge. I have to think that our Lord, as he walked this earth, had “only if” thoughts – but I think he did what I should do, and we all should do, pray, learn from them, reverse them, use them. Thank you for writing this, it’s not easy to admit that we even think the “only if” thoughts – he not only admitted it but caused me, caused us, to think about it – thank you – God bless you.

  6. Hey! Just gave you an award–check it out in my current post!

  7. I’m just kind of wondering why there hasn’t been a new post here – I hope it’s only because it’s summertime – and you’re busy with fun, summer-y, family kind of fun. I hope all is well. I heart your words – I’ll be back to read more later. God bless and keep you and each and every one of yours this day..

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