God is the Basis of All My Acts
A friend recently asked the question, “What is my driving force?” She struggled with the question when she asked herself; so, she turned to family and friends for an answer. Her question, sent via email, caught me by surprise. I wrote her back saying I had no idea and that I had no idea what mine was either.
My friend responded to my email, which provided even more food for thought. A friend of hers, years ago, told her that her driving force was fear. I could so relate. How often I have responded with fear to events in my life– Why do I ever fear? My friend’s email suggested that my driving force was thoughtfulness. Wow. I liked that. I liked that she thought that.
But, my heart knew otherwise. Yes, I’m thoughtful of others. As a mom and wife, I know I have sacrificed much and placed my kid’s and my husband’s needs and desires first. I work hard as a teacher because I think of my students and how important their education is to me–that they really learn, not just listen to some pompous professor spout about an irrelevant topic.
Her response kept me thinking, however. I hadn’t ever considered that I might have a single driving force–something that provides the foundation for everything I do. Every response I give. Every action I take. All that I am.
I wanted to think that God is the driving force in my life. But honestly, I knew better. So often I haven’t turned to Him. So often I haven’t wanted anyone to know that I profess to be a follower of Christ–because my response or actions fell so short of the message of Christ. So often I’ve let money, praise, fear, or selfish motives drive me.
The question continued to plague me. Then, last night when I sat down to read from a book on forgiveness–a book I had read before–a sentence on the page jumped out at me. It was as if it were the only thing written on the page or at least the only thing highlighted on the page. It said:
God is the basis, the cause, and the source of all that I am, of my whole being and all my acts.
— Free of Charge, Miroslav Volk
The message sang out: even when I fall short, God is the basis of all. His grace, forgiveness, mercy, love. They cover me, and I give thanks. I am blessed.
What is your driving force in the midst of the messiness we call life?